Can you believe it...

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I feel like it's been an age since I was able to login to this website and look around. Because of my low activity, I expected that there wouldn't be much to see here and YET you all continue to produce quality deviations that I absolutely love. 

So. What's been going on?

I had hoped to be able to shoot stock and whatnot again, but since I'd logged in last I began to seriously invest in cosplay and begin attending cons again. I've been through so many phases of my life now that I'm not sure where to begin, and honestly I expect that no one will want to hear it. 

In 2014 I contracted Lyme's Disease, caught in its late stages in which it hit my central nervous system and paralyzed half of my face permanently. This was compounded by my already existing immune deficiency, so my already low self image has since plummeted. I don't take photographs of myself anymore, but my friends remain beautiful people. I lost the ability to play the flute since I cannot move my mouth properly and I also cannot smile. Since I majored in theater and was a musician, you might imagine this took a heavy toll on me. Instead of dying on the couch, which nearly happened mind you, I got back into one of my first loves: Anime. Fruits Basket kept me sane, and then Attack on Titan came along and got me off the couch and trying to take my life back. I began going to the gym and needed tunes for such ventures, so now I'm into The K-Pop as well. This has led me to very strange paths, ones I thought I'd never be taking, but I have applied to go back to school in the fall for Asian Studies, largely to focus on Korean and Japanese, as my life goals have shifted to some commercial ventures in Baltimore City once I learn enough of what I need to know. And yes, I do fanart paintings. I've gotten better at that apparently. 

I'm a ray of sunshine right now, lol! But I've been taken on as an official photographer for a Seventeen Fansite (which is a deal, tbh, for a nerd like me), have attended and photographed a number of concerts, and joined a dance group to cover various k-pop songs and choreographies. (Any ARMY here? lolz) I've performed at cons with them (the dance group), and it's something I never thought I'd be good at but once your previous avenues for expression are stripped from you, fiery people like me find a way I guess. Oh! And the stars aligned and I was actually able to meet the incomparable jademacalla in person!! He is every bit as wonderful a person as you think he is, truly. 

We can all point and laugh, it's fine. :D Like me trying to figure out how in the actual hell to navigate this website now. 

Enough about my bullshit. How is everyone doing? And should I continue to provide stock or just let this whole thing go?

OH RIGHT. Making sure I still have those passwords available, here's the link: CLICK ME FOR PASSWORDS YOU DONT HAVE TO EMAIL ME
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miguelopazo's avatar
You can try MMS it can helps you with your health problems